Better self talk:

i did my best with what i knew at the time

You are still at the centre of everything for me. I’m working so hard and I’m so tired. It is difficult but I will do it all. I just wish I could come to you for comfort

I dont think I could ever get sick of seeing you smile

Do you need to be wanted so much that I come and get you? Is that what it will take?

I miss you and I love you 😔

I feel kinda sad and empty right now. I've wished for so long to stop loving you and for this obsession to end. Part of me wants it back but mostly I don't because it made me miserable. But it's left a bit of a void not gonna lie. It's a good thing tho because it gives me space to fill it with things that are healthy and get my needs met. I'm melancholic. But also relieved and know there's new possibilities just around the corner.

He gives good advice. He thinks with his head, and his head is on good shoulders. If I asked him what I should do, he'd tell me to stop talking to you because I'm setting myself up to get hurt. But you are him. He is you. I like you. So should I take your advice?

look how beautiful the moon is tonight....wherever you are we are looking at the same sky…

Fear has caused me to wait too long, and now you're gone

the way we loved was this: wholehearted, retracted. a lemon drop i was sure tasted like the moon. it was bright pink, it was chained up, it was wedding china shattered, it was falling asleep on a train & waking to the find the world ever so slightly altered. it was youthful, it was loud, it threw fate's red string for a loop. when i finished my tea, the leaves held no omens. it was a heartbeat, early & monstrous. it was a cold night & a voice on the radio