I was too busy writing you novels, when you only needed three words.

I'm sorry I wasn't able to figure that out sooner.

even though this is called letters to crushes, i feel like it's more of letters to loved ones. it's so full of love of all sorts, painful or joyful. empty or bursting with emotions. i love it and i love you all

I enjoyed watching you watch the eclipse-- uh, I mean.. I enjoyed watching the eclipse with you..

So I guess that's it. I'm never gonna go on a date with you or sit in the front seat while you drive and we sing James Blunt at the top of our lungs. I'm never gonna cuddle up to you on a sofa watching those romantic comedies i love. I'm never gonna fly on an airplane with you, holding your hand tightly as we ascend. I'm never gonna text you love hearts at the end of each text and receive kisses in return. I'm never gonna walk down the aisle and meet you at the altar. I'm never gonna plan your surprise birthday party and invite our family and friends.

We will never kiss. ill never kiss you and hug you before you go to work. I'll never sit in the library with you whilst we study our respective fields.

It all amounted to nothing. I see a range of things every couple does and used to think, 'that'll be us someday'.

And now, all I see is 'that could never be us, ever'. And I can't get myself to ever accept that

But I know I'll have to.

If you love someone, you must be prepared to let them go. You know, to make room for better ones.

You give me peace and sanity in this crazy mixed up world.

Love doesn't have to come from just your boyfriend or girlfriend. Love is everywhere. Life is love. The purpose of life is to love and be loved. It can come from family, friends, children, colleague, teachers,students so don't feel bad if you've never been in a relationship. Love is everywhere and it's yours for the taking.

I don't know if you were joking when you said "hey, lets get married in five years."

But I also don't know if I was joking when I said "sure!"

If the opportunity ever arose, would you say hello?

I'm still thinking about you.

And yesterday.


How nice and comfortable and ohhhhhh no....

How it felt.

Uh oh. I caught something......