It's valid.

What you are feeling is valid.

Princess, Its been an amazing time and we've learned about each other so much.. I've had a blast just being able to talk to you because we never ever run out of things to talk about. We have SO much in common its not even funny. You're probably the only person who i've ever had the chance to meet that has so much in common... You're amazing in every single way. You're beautiful with no ends, Your voice is like an angels. You make my day every single day.. It would be an honor to be able to call you my girlfriend.. 

You know, maybe sometimes she just wants you to chase her. Maybe she distances herself, and pulls herself away because she wants you to show her that you do care. Maybe she says what she says and does what she does because she wants something more from you. This doesnt give her an excuse to be a drama queen, but before you look at it like she's being one, look deeper. Maybe she took off out the door and said she will never be back. Sure, but damn well she looks behind her shoulder several times to See if you are running to stop her. Damn well she waits a few minutes, swelling in hope that you'll come out of that door. Damn well she stare at her phone, just waiting for you to call her. You know, maybe sometimes, all she wants is for you to chase her, and tell her why she should stay.

I'm not saying that I think of you constantly, but I can't deny the fact that each time my mind wanders, it always finds a way back to you.

I find it so beautiful how when you love someone every little thing about that person turns out to be so special, whether is the way they close their eyes when they smile, the way they touch their hair, the silly faces they make without noticing. It's so beautiful seeing people melting over simple things, just because it's that special person that makes their heart beats faster.

I WANT TO BE BEST FRIENDS WITH SOMEONE AND FALL IN LOVE WITH THEM AND THEN WE COULD GO TO DISNEYLAND AND HAVE FUN AND WEAR MICKEY EARS AND WATCH FIREWORKS AND DO EVERYTHING POSSIBLE THEN GO HOME AND WATCH A MOVIE AND JUST BE SUPER COMFORTABLE WITH EACH OTHER BECAUSE WED BE BEST FRIENDS AND HAVE A SECRET HANDSHAKE OR WHATEVER AND JUST BE REALLY HAPPY

I'm proud of my heart♥

It's been played, stabbed, cheated, burned and broken, but somehow it still works.

Kendall,

It’s been four hours. The household heard me bawl my eyes out. Though we had what would be my first (and only) proper breakup, I’ve drowned my sorrows in nine small chocolate crinkles for brunch. For the past few hours I’ve been crying to Ariana Grande, Bruno Mars, James Blunt, Katelyn Tarver, Lady Antebellum, Mariah Carey, and Taylor Swift among others.

My eyes are bloodshot and puffy, and my nose is runny. The gang and Camille are mad, but Katie and I managed to diffuse the tension. She’s leaving too. “Devastated” doesn’t even cover how I feel right now. At least she promised to keep in touch and keep me updated. I wish you didn’t break yours when you said you’d never break my heart, or leave. I’m not mad.

I can’t bring myself to get mad or hate you. We had the perfect relationship and I felt like a queen during the time we spent together. You were honest, loyal, romantic, and the perfect gentleman. You will always have a special place in my heart, and I’ll still be here for you if you ever need a friend. I won’t treat Katie differently and hopefully Camille doesn’t get tired of me.

I’ll keep the bling, the memories, the messages, the pictures, and some of your shirts. *sticks tongue out* I wish you the absolute best in life Kendall, and a speedy recovery too. I love you. There are plenty of fish in the sea, but you’re always and forever my Nemo.

Yours Truly,

~Jo

Does anybody have that person in their life? That like, low-level, subconscious crush, that you're just a little teeny tiny bit in love with? And you'd never intentionally pursue them or tell them about your feelings for them, but you just kind of know that, if you were ever both single at the same time, and the timing worked out right, and you were in the same place at the same time, and you were bored enough, you'd probably end up with them?

No?

Me either.

(Okay. I'm lying. I miss you. It was good to see you. If you're bored and single, call me?)

I've never been the type of girl that guys for. I've never been asked out by a guy I like, I've always done the asking. Hell, even a guy that supposedly has feelings for me has told me I'm 'not the prettiest', and I'm his second choice anyway.

So I'm trying to stop feeling sorry for myself, and instead I'm gonna make a change. No more doormat. I deserve to be first, and I'm not gonna let anyone tell me different.

Now I just need to find a guy that will like that. :/