i sincerely hoped your 'next time' meant tomorrow.

it's been a year and a half love.

i should have known your 'next time' meant 'never'.


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if this makes it to front page, i'll take courage and message him first.

When I think about how much I want to take care of you and how I will never be able to, it feels like a torpedo going straight into chest. The only thing I can hope for is that whoever ends up with you will take care of you the way I wish I could.

please know that if you ever want to try again, and is willing to mend the snags in the tapestry of us with me, I will be here waiting for you.

Feels like I just had a whole conversation with you entirely in my imagination. It was delightful, you make me laugh out loud even in my mind. You are a gem.

somewhere between falling in love and falling apart.

oh to be human. it is a terribly beautiful ride, is it not?

You saved my life that day. You didn’t even know it. I’m so in love with you.

I don’t care that we aren’t together, that’s not the issue. More than I want to be with you, I want to help you. I want to make you happy and do sweet things for you. I want to take some stuff off your plate. I want to help you figure things out. I want to encourage you to be the best you. I want to make you laugh until you can’t breathe and forget why you were sad. I want to know all of your stories and tell you how perfect I think you are. You’re perfect. Not really but close enough. My kind of perfect at least. I want to ramble on to you about all of the things I love about you. How attractive you are. How great your character is. How smart you are. I want to tell you all the things and I want you to believe them. That’s my letter for the week. That’s what I wish I could do.

I think we just misunderstood each other from time to time and deep down I think we both wanted to say something yet were anxious if we had gotten the whole situation wrong.

I never told you I liked you. Not because you weren’t worth it or I didn’t like you enough to say anything. It was because I didn’t like myself enough to believe you could like me back.

The worst is watching someone who you are in love with settle for someone undeserving of them