After we had our ice cream date we both didn't want to leave each other, so we parked a block away from my house and just sat in the car holding hands and enjoying each other's company. I love staring at him because it amazes me that a guy like him is into a girl like me. When he caught me staring he looked into my eyes for a bit and then looked away. When I asked him why he replied "I don't like staring at you for too long, because then it makes me want to do this." And then he kissed me. And oh my god guys. I think I'm falling for him even more.

dear you,

I miss you and I thought I was going to see you this weekend but no. If a day without you is a year without rain, it's been 95 years of drought. Please, please come back.

-you know who it is

When I was nine years old, my mother was planning to leave the house. I asked her, why she was leaving, and she replied, "I love you too much."

You left 207 hours ago saying the same things

So I was at Target today. Totally normal. As I was heading to the checkout line, I had this inward pull towards one specific line with a cute cashier at it. When I came up, he smiled at me and asked if I was heading off to college (probably tipped off by the absurd amount of junk food and notebooks). After talking, I found out that we actually go to the same college and will live a street away from each other. Things like this don't happen too often, so hopefully I'll be seeing him and his beautiful smile sometime very soon.

you're my best friend and you said we could tell each other anything so promise you wont freak when I say that I'm in love with you

You're wearing that smile again.

The one that makes you look like the happiest person in the world, when actually you're not. You're breaking down inside.

Talk to me. We'll solve this together.

You looked at me with earnest blue eyes, your huge frame dwarfing me in the fading light. You placed your hand on my shoulder and whispered, "Don't you know? Girls like you never like guys like me."

I wish you could see how far from the truth that is.

I was sitting in car in the parking lot of the grocery store because I hadn't bothered to change out of my pajamas. I was looking at my phone to pass the time; my hair was a mess, and there was chocolate in my teeth. A scab had formed on my chin from an unfortunate curling iron burn from a few days before.

As I was reading a text message, a random boy knocked on my window. He was wearing a uniform from the grocery store, so I rolled down the window to see what he wanted. He spoke in words that I could barely register: "I know this is weird to say in a parking lot like this, but I wanted to tell you that you are gorgeous." I think I managed to say thank you and smile a chocolaty smile, but I was taken by surprise.

To the boy who made my day, I wish you all the happiness in life, and I hope we meet again.

I wish I knew where you were. I wish we were talking. I wish everything didn't make me think of you. And I wish that when I am reminded of you my heart didn't feel so much like it's being crushed.

To Lola,

What can I say to the girl I've lost. It's been just over a week since we both broke, but i know already you've moved past. I wonder oft if you think of me, knowing you don't but still hoping nonetheless. I see the apathy granted in mere hours, but still I hope. I hope what we had someday holds meaning. I hope that someday you miss me in your life. I hope that I am never forgotten.

You talk often of wanting someone sweet and kind. Someone to hold you in their arms. To love you. And I've never had the courage to say that that's all I ever wanted to be. That's all I ever wanted to do. But you never let me. All I wanted was to treat you like a Queen, my princess, my Cinderella. All I wanted was to hold you and call you mine. And it will always burn that you never let me be that for you.


with regret,

s