You know those people who don't know how to be alone? That they always need to be in a relationship? I think I am the opposite... I don't know how not to be alone. I don't know how to be in a relationship... 

Of course, I want to have someone to talk to, someone who is always by my side when things get bad... But I don't know how to let them be there. I've grown too comfortable with my loneliness.

I love silence and the empty side on my bed, but at the same time I wish to have someone to cuddle as I fall asleep. I wish someone to be there for me everyday, but I get tired of people very easily. I want to hold someone's hand as I walk down the street, but I hate the idea of taking my headphones off. 

 

I only know how to be alone. 

 

 

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  • k
10 years ago

This is me. I am exactly like that, I get sick of people so easily and I enjoy being alone; though I wish I had that one person I can share everything with. I am afraid of being in a relationship cause I think im not ready. I enjoy being alone too much. Now I only know how to be alone.

  • anonymous lover
10 years ago

i know how it feels.

i can go to a moviehouse and watch a movie alone. i could eat in a restaurant alone. i could go to the mall alone, buy books and comics and clothes alone. i could survive a 3-hour bus ride alone.

my friends (yes, despite my alone-ness i still have a couple of them) tell me me stop being a freakin introvert and get out of my shell. since because i'm in my twenties and i still haven't had a boyfriend. but really, i just haven't met that person i could allow to be with me in my alone moments.

thank you for this letter, btw. makes me feel normal. heh.

  • ddd
10 years ago

Omg this is me too... i'm really happy in my life without a relationship because i've such lovely friends but my friends say i should find someone and that i'm too picky hahaha

  • ddd
10 years ago

but i guess it's cos we haven't wouldn't wanna settle and sacrifice our lifestyle for the ones who aren't right lol

  • Jen
10 years ago

This only proves that I am NORMAL. okay I am so relieved!!!!!

  • s
10 years ago

sometimes i don't even know if i'm happy being alone--it's all i have, and all i've ever known. recently i found that when i was on the verge of letting someone in (someone i have grown comfortable with for months of talking) it was terrifying. i don't know how not to be scared. i don't know if i'm the only one feeling these things. but thanks for making me feel less alone, at least for a little.

  • anonymous lover
10 years ago

Same:/

  • sonz
10 years ago

Awesome way of putting it. There's another factor as well. Being comfortable in solitude makes you pretty self-reliant and for girls that want a guy to be assertive and see past their walls...I think a lot of guys can get intimidated. I just get anxious that I've missed some good opportunities because of that scare factor, which is unintentional.

Im all for patience (gosh knows i've waited 22 years) and fate but don't you ever wonder when your time is gonna come? Im getting pretty impatient...

  • anonymous lover
10 years ago

I used to be like that. But then I found someone who made me excited to be around them and share with them. Now I can't wait to tell him everything right when it happens. You can have both, trust me :)

  • n
9 years ago

how about walking down the street with someone and sharing music? :) you don't have to take your headphones off, but you don't have to be alone

  • Jaspah
9 years ago

Wow, we really need to make a group of our own. I wish I had written that first, becuase that's just me.

I can go the mall,restrants,work,go to movies all by myself, and I dont give a damn. I always have my headphones on. I'm not comfy without em.

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