i miss falling without fear. i miss running to run, i miss closing my eyes and thinking of somebody as i fall asleep. i miss the idea of love, i miss crying and listening to music because the feelings are just too overwhelming. i miss feeling beautiful because i had beautiful thoughts. i miss sleep. i miss happiness, i miss talking until 3 in the morning, i miss undiscovered books and movies and music, i miss being 16, i miss mistaking crushes for love. i miss being naive. i miss blue eyes and white smiles. i miss chlorine. i miss music, i miss my friends, i miss my headphones and i miss the feeling you get after reading all the harry potters for the first time. i miss surprise and suspense, joy and liveliness. i miss you. 

but i miss me, too.

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  • anonymous lover
9 years ago

Wow. You summed it up all too well. Missing that innocence and those beautiful thoughts. I miss that and myself, too. It's like that feeling of a new love and beauty is gone forever and replaced by sadness.

But I know we'll get it back. We just have to keep trying.

  • M.
9 years ago

I have to say I disagree with anon.

Sometimes the way you feel changes, and sometimes that is really hard. But that doesn't mean you can't be happy, because you can. You can fall in love with yourself and another person again. It may take time and it may be hard, but it is worth it.

I've been where you are, and I know you can make it out. Hold on, and keep fighting. You can do it, beautiful.

  • c
9 years ago

I relate to this so much it makes my soul ache

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