Paula, I loved you more than any force in the universe, you saw me as the guy who you nearly hooked up with at a frat party but I saw you as my reason for my breathing and the reason my breath was taken way. Why did you do it Paula, why did you kill yourself. You could have told me your problems would've been my problems. I miss you so much it hurts, I can't eat, nothing tastes good anymore not even the blueberry chip muffins that you like.