I'm terrified of love. It is an distorted concept to me. My mind is altered to believe love is conditional. Although I know in my heart it is not... I don't know how to use it correctly
Additionally, I am physically not able to love someone as much as they love me. I am in a constant state of malaise and irritability. I am weak and unstable and frightened. I need a hug, but at the same time, that's the last thing I need.
I am so scared.