Do you know what's really bad for your heart? All those mini heartbreaks.

Like that moment you realize a relationship or a friendship is ending. You realize how slowly it's dying without drama, without fights. And eventually it's just silence.

Or all those moments you realized that person wasn't "the one". All those moments combined. They accumulate. 

What about that moment you remember something that used to matter to you? A dream or an object or a hobby. You wonder how you forgot about it. You remember what it made you feel, what it meant to you, but it's just a memory and the feelings are impossible to revive.

Or the very, very sad moment, you realize you have nothing to say to someone you used to talk to a lot.

I don't know man, these mini heartbreaks make my little heart very tired. When each of them happen they are barely worth any tears, but when I realize what they did to my heart, I'm overwhelmed with sadness. Because I know life is so full of them, and I don't have enough going on to make my heart feel fresh again. 

I don't know.

I'm just sad.


25 comments add comment

  • anonymous lover
3 months ago

I've been feeling like that a lot lately. Nice to know I'm not the only one :) you wrote it so elegantly too. Thanks

  • anonymous lover
3 months ago

Same

  • anonymous lover
3 months ago

On the flip side, I feel we don't allow ourselves to recognize little things that used to be thrilling and make us happy.

  • The same no namer from the first comment
3 months ago

I think when we're with someone, we become consumed by the relationship that we forget what it was like to be on our own. After all of it, we crave for some sort of unconditional companionship, and don't allow ourselves to comprehend the difference between loneliness and emptiness. Emptiness isn't necessarily a bad thing since you tend to learn what fills you, but it's difficult to understand when we've been dependent on another person, place, or thing to fill us. I don't know...

  • anonymous lover
3 months ago

Oh God... I feel so moved.

  • anonymous lover
3 months ago

feelign this lately

  • anonymous lover
3 months ago

This is exactly what I am feeling in this moment and I felt like no one understood until now.

  • rosebud
3 months ago

“I’m the type of person you might not hear from for some time, but then, suddenly, one day, bang, you never hear from me again." -Thom Pain (Based on Nothing)

It's a one-man show, but the play is worth a read.

  • A bud who once gave roses
3 months ago

That play sounds interesting, I like the quote. It's about time I faded too. Thanks

  • anonymous lover
3 months ago

Feels

  • Kelsey
3 months ago

I've actually really been feeling this lately too, like my heart has been hardened from all the small heart breaks over the years. But then, I just wonder if it's strength. And I try and take joy in the little things and choose to let those win at the end of the day. Stay strong.

  • The sad person who wrote this
3 months ago

There are little heartbreaks, but then there are little pleasures like seeing your letter on the home page and reading comments from people letting you know you're not alone in your sadness. :) thank you

  • anonymous lover
3 months ago

Maybe we can take an adventure together and forget about our sadness :)

  • The sad person who wrote this
3 months ago

^ yes please.

  • To the sad person that wrote this
3 months ago

^ Wish there was a way I could hide my e-mail and give it to you :) think I'd really enjoy talking with you

  • The sad person who wrote this
3 months ago

^ I'm sure there is a way. I would love to talk to you.

  • To the sad person that wrote this
3 months ago

^ Nah there isn't lol, I'm a bit skeptical putting my e-mail publicly in the comments..

  • The sad person who wrote this
3 months ago

Yeah it's not the best idea in the world..

  • anonymous lover
3 months ago

^ you guys can always meet up in the chat and whisper things like that to each other :)

  • the sad person who wants to know the sad person that wrote this
3 months ago

I didn't think of that, seems like we come onto this sporadically though haha.

  • anonymous lover
3 months ago

The two of you can go on the LTC chat at the same time and whisper it to each other on there. =)

  • The sad person who wrote this
3 months ago

I think that might take some time to happen, with the pace we're going at rn x)

  • the sad person that wants to know the sad person that wrote this
3 months ago

Lol, yeaaaa, this isn't going so well, what if I kept the chat open and if you see the same alias Im using to comment on this you can whisper it to me or vice versa, I was on that to see what it was like but I'm not sure how to send a private message...its not like you can click on the alias...is it /pm? we'll figure it out

  • The Chem Prince
3 months ago

Hey just go on the chat and put some initials.

For example I'm The Chem Prince so when I go in that chat I put TCP

That way people can whisper it to you. :)

  • The sad person who wrote this
3 months ago

Ill be waiting. Im K on the chat

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