We made each other feel like shit but I still love you. Idk actually. It kind of doesn't feel like I should. You've moved on. We've both had many other experiences with other people, whether that be a relationship or hooking up with people. Something doesn't feel right. I know I love you, but did we love each other enough? Were we using love as something we never really gave to each other but as something we knew we both had? Every time we ever actually tried to share that love, I fell in so much deeper. I wish you were still here. I wish we didn't have so much conflict. I'm sorry for being a jerk and insulting you. You said you know I'm better in person, remember? Damn. You know I wish I could hug you again. I know it was eighth grade and I was being a complete dork but it really felt nice. It was warm and you smelled good.

Ugh I wish these irrational thoughts would stop.