Yesterday while sitting at a red light, I started frantically combing my hair with my fingers so I wouldn't look like a hot mess when I got to my destination. As I turned my head to the side to get the back of my hair, I glanced up and saw a cute guy in a pickup truck staring at me like he was mesmerized. We made eye contact and both smiled. It is the epitome of cliche but God I needed that. Something so little can make me feel so good. I have been feeling invisible. I don't thrive on attention, in fact, I usually don't like it. But due to some personal things going on in my life, my self esteem has taken a hit and I just don't feel like myself. I'm criticizing my skin, hair, weight, all of it. I feel like I've been forgotten and I guess the natural reaction is to reflect and find things wrong with me to explain this void. So to capture someone's attention for even a moment and make them smile made me feel like I was on cloud nine.

Everyone needs attention. You can love yourself but still feel that deep rooted pain associated with loneliness. People will tell you to love yourself, don't worry about other people and they will try to make you feel bad about wanting that very basic need of human connection. Screw them. There is nothing wrong with me and there is nothing wrong with you. We deserve to be noticed. We deserve to be desired. An attention whore is someone who goes out of their way to get attention and it's never enough. Do not confuse that with the craving for attention and connections when you're practically starved of it. You aren't an attention whore. You're human, just like everyone else.

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  • anonymous lover
one month ago

YES LOVE

  • anonymous lover
one month ago

<3 thank you for this

  • anonymous lover
12 days ago

I needed this. Thank you—he told me he couldn’t love me because I didn’t love myself. I love myself quite a lot. I care for myself every day but had burnt myself out trying to love him the way he didn’t love himself. It hurt and your words are the words I wish I had at that time.

  • anonymous lover
12 days ago

I have never seen a homepage more applicable to my life. Absolutely made my night.

  • Neko-tan
12 days ago

<3

  • positively negative
12 days ago

Thank you <3

  • anonymous lover
11 days ago

I love this. 💕💕💕

  • ~•*•~ANN~•*•~
11 days ago

Whoa, thanks guys! Glad someone can relate 😅 Love and hugs to all of you ❤️🤗

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