I wrote a letter that got over 600 likes on here 5 years ago when I would obsessively come on here, secretly hoping I would find a letter from my crush. So, I wrote one for myself. I pretended I was him, I pretended he noticed me in class, noticed all of my quirks, I pretended I was worthy of his attention and of love in general. The letter was a sham.
I have not been on here since I left high school. I no longer recognise the girl that wrote a love letter to herself but I am still exactly the same person she described. I still read Salinger and use chopsticks to eat everything.
I moved out of my small town, gained confidence, got a modelling contract and am an honours student. Suddenly, the men in my life were saying the words I typed out for myself years ago. I have always been worthy of love, I have always noticed my quirks, I have always been beautiful and smart, the world just finally kept up.
My crush from 5 years ago came out as gay 2 weeks ago and he is as beautiful as ever.
Life had a better plot than any of my fantasies.