I don’t care if you just come here see me expecting sex. You read it right, I’m not caring about anything... there’s no big deal, no reason to make a scene.

You want it, I want it. That’s Okay.

You didn’t get laid for one year, and I haven’t popped my cherry.

First time is meant to be special? I guess, I won’t talk much about it to prevent turning it into a moral debate. I should only do it when I get married? It’s what I’ve been taught, but, I don’t want to get married nor have children, so what’s all that for?

I don’t give a damn about whatever things anymore, I stopped caring... it’s like I’m about to do some shit this year and whatever outcome I get, whatever way it ends... it’s fine.

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  • anonymous lover
6 years ago

Marriage and kids or no- that’s fine- but don’t be indifferent about what should be a special event in your life. Make it meaningful when you share your treasure for the first time.

Don’t be like me. I lost my virginity at 14. Huge mistake. Was in a series of relationships with older guys; 2 of them were physically abusive. Mistake, mistake.

Now I am All screwed up and WISHING I had what you still have.

So if you are ready fine- but at least make it special. It’s too important to not value. I’m begging you to reconsider.

  • OP-Author
6 years ago

Thank you for your kind words, Anon.

I’ve been feeling down and kinda suicidal.

It feels like this year is the last straw, it didn’t begin, but I’m over saturated.

  • From First Anon
6 years ago

I don’t know you but I am now very worried about you. Your indifference in your initial post is a clear marker for serious depression... and your second post confirms this. Okay I am no one to you, but if you need to vent or just talk I am here for you....

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