I'm going to tell you a story. A personal one. And I share with the hopes that you will continue to embrace the vulnerability of love... regardless of heart break.

I was someone who never had a sifnificant other. Not in middle school. No date to the 8th grade dance. Not in high school. No one asked me to prom. In fact, I was madly in love with a guy who just couldn't love me back. I went to college thinking it was finally my chance. I craved human touch. I often imagined what it would feel like to be held, or kissed, or touched. I wanted so desperately to understand love. Bathe in it. Cherish it. Because my whole life I was surrounded by beautiful friends who always seemed to have "someone". And I was always the person who had "no one". College came and went, and still... No magic. No love interest. No one seemed to have any interest in me at all, in fact. And it was a blow to my self-esteem. Because instead of realizing that I deserved so much more than what my friends had settled for-- I felt like I was nothing. Like something was wrong with me. But, darling... I was off base. Because my first year of grad school, I met someone. And he made my heart shine. I didn't know my belly was an Olympic gold medalist in gymnastics. He made my tummy flip and my body calm. He held me, he kissed me, and he touched me. And I finally understood why I had to wait had to for so long. because it was always his hands that were supposed to open me up to the world of love. We fell deeply, madly, world changingly in love. But he was from a different country- and he had to go back home. To his family. To his life. Our souls never stopped crying for each other, though. And we tried to make it work long distance. We made it a whole year. But eventually- we had to face reality. And so this beautiful love story came to its last chapter. But I'll never forget what he said when we parted ways...

"we loved each other gently... and we leave each other gently."

So, even though a piece of me will always belong to him. And even though I am heart broken and sad right now.

I'll forever be grateful for my first experience with love. Because the real thing.... was worth all of those years missing out on something I simply wasn't ready for.

My heart is with you, LTC.

Kind regards,

KML

9 comments add comment

  • anonymous lover
27 days ago

So THAT’S what happened with the circumstances of life.

We will still support you and love you, even if we are strangers on the internet

  • Blue
27 days ago

this is as lovely as it is heartbreaking

  • E
25 days ago

I absolutely adore this letter <3

  • positively negative
24 days ago

This gives me so much home. Thank you. This is beautiful <3

  • positively negative
24 days ago

*hope

  • @silently_red
21 days ago

Very beautiful I wish the same thing happened to me

:)

  • K
19 days ago

People do indeed come and go... and being able to accept that even after heartbreak takes a lot of courage!! I admire you for that. Stay strong.

  • OP
19 days ago

All of your kindness means the world. Strangers... yet one thing unites us- faith in love. Sending you all well wishes and my sincerest gratitude.

  • anonymous lover
5 days ago

It’s sad that love has to be so heartless.. it takes your breath away but some how keeps you going in life.

Stay strong.

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