Why are you still in my heart after all this time? I dont want to love you, I didn’t choose this. But I do, so very much. I’m afraid to see you again. How intensely I will feel in your presence. It’s becoming a distant memory, your face, your eyes. The feeling I feel sitting across from you. Not just comfort and safety, I feel that I really like you, I feel attraction, connection. Then I feel stupid all over again because you don’t love me that way. I keep reminding myself that you are a lesson. Knowing you taught me that genuine people exist. That soulmates are real, because our connection is surreal. That I can be myself. That’s the greatest gift anyone could give me. Because of this simple act, I can grow. I love you and its ok that you don’t love me back. I’ll still always feel in love and genuine caring for you. I really wish you peace, light and love.