I was going throught all of my old phones tonight and came across a bunch of photos and videos I never uploaded. It honestly hurt seeing 14 year old me so insecure and not loving herself. I am here to tell you, you are beatiful. Not everyone is going to think it, but you are you. There is no other you. You were made and created in your own special way. I wish I could of told my younger self this. 14 year old me hated herself. She would try and follow makeup tutorials off of YouTube trying to feel prettier, style her hair different ways to feel prettier, dress a certain way to try and feel prettie but nothing worked. My smile in every single one of my pictures back then was so fake, I was hardly ever actually smiling. I was in such a dark place at that time and no one even knew but me. I am here to tel you though it does get better. For all the young ones on here that are either in middle or high school please understand life gets better, learn to love yourself and be confident in the person you are. I am now 23 and fully starting to love myself more and more. I am not where I want to be but I am definitely not where I used to be.

- the girl who can finally smile

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  • anon
5 years ago

As someone who's struggled with depression, anxiety, and self esteem/confidence issues for the past ten years, I second this post.

I was at a very low point for a lot of high school, to the point that I was self harming regularly and lowkey dealt with suicidal ideation on a daily basis. In the depths of depression, you can't see things ever getting better. Hope feels impossible.

But, for me and many many other people, life got significantly better after high school. Yeah, things will be scary as you go through different transitions and deal with interpersonal relationships changing. But nothing beats being out of high school imo.

Now I don't struggle as frequently or as deeply, I have a job I like, I recently bought a car, and I'm overall much happier and more confident. Not that I don't still have issues, because I do. Everyone does. They're just not as bad now.

I'm about to be 23 as well, and I very much agree with the last line you wrote.

If anyone out there needs someone to talk to, let me know and I'll give a way to contact me (prob on twitter initially).

I know it feels impossible to believe, because I've been there, and I know it can be incredibly frustrating to hear, but life genuinely does get better.

  • anon
5 years ago

Sorry for the long-ass comment ? it's late and I'm feeling wordy, apparently.

  • OP
5 years ago

lol it’s fine ? your long comment is worth reading ❤️

  • anonymous lover
5 years ago

Teenager me hated himself too. I didn’t learn to love myself and be confident in who I am until I left high school.

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