Why is it that I only yearn for you?

I've told myself countless times that I do not need you. I remind myself of how you manipulated and invaded my privacy, and quite frankly I find myself thinking about how the good outweighs the bad. But I know, I know so well that I'd never want to go through it all again. Even though this was years ago and I've been in a few relationships, my heart traces for you.

I know well enough that I have no business with you. Yet, no matter how many times I tell myself that my life is fine without you or that I'd never want to see you again ... quite stupidly, I do want to see you.

It's so stupid, really. I know it so well that you're not worth the trouble yet all I've ever wanted and hoped for has always been you.