after 8 years, i finally got what i wanted. what you said you also wanted. we had a night of intimacy together, and i'm not talking about sex. 

we just... let each other say what we already know without saying it. we let our hands explore what we never had. i think my fingertips memorized the perfect curve of your collar bone. the structure of your face... the texture of your hair. and now? should we not have done that? should my lips never have felt what yours could do?

i would do anything to live in that one night forever. but we let it get in the way of our friendship.. and nothing could make this worse. if we went on pretending we didn't want that to happen then we'd still be stuck in that horrible in between of not knowing... and that sucked. on the other hand, now that we both know what we feel.... can we still talk? please, i just miss you. i need you in my life. in any way that you'll let me have you.