I've never missed people. Growing up, being constantly transported between two houses, you get hardened to not seeing people. I would miss people if I could, but for some reason I can't.

And then after all these years- there's you. You've been sick for days now and I haven't seen you in far too long.

Is this how it feels to desperately miss someone? I want my head on your shoulder and I want you to be braiding my hair and I just want to be with you, more than anything else right now. I don't know how to deal with this.

I don't miss people, and yet here I am, missing you. Terribly.