i'm scared of having to choose. of having equal opportunity and feelings at or around the same time with F and M.
even though F and i have been friends for about two years, there's more reasons why i think it might be troublesome to actually be in a relationship with her, and i recall her saying she didn't really want one right now.
but M seems to want everything i want, and we click. we get along. they make me smile and laugh. i had the first truly happy, goofy date in a very long time. i feel like i could talk for hours with them.
being with F is like being beside a fire. there's many forms but she feels like a campfire. smokey. warm. but only occasional.
whereas M feels like... a summer thunderstorm. or even just a warm downpour. the kind you splash in puddles and laugh in the rain as you get soaked.
will the storm come before or after the campfire is made? which will i welcome? which will i hope for?