In all of these years, there were bound to be some coincidences. But that’s all they are. Coincidences.

I used to tell myself that I would force myself to get over it in the new year but that has never actually worked, no matter what steps I took to make it so.

I have many resolutions for 2020. Of them, my biggest resolutions are as follows:

To hesitate before speaking and acting. To not just say and do what I think and feel and want in that moment and try, instead, to just respond and react.

And to see things for what they are, not for what they could be or might be or may become. To look at the overall picture and see it for what it is. To not look for anything beyond what is there and real, in front of my face.