“...an open field in front of me 

an open field behind 

I can see which place to go 

I can see it in my mind....”

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if only the answers came so easily. there are so many new beginnings, and even though some of them are good, anxiety is making me feel like I need to be scared of everything that’s changing

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why do I feel like my friends don’t want me around? they shut me out. they don’t want me there. why do i cry as soon as I’m by myself again? why does no one say “goodbye” when I leave?

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the people that sort of act like they want me around seem to want me around for the wrong reasons... or for reasons I haven’t yet figured out. Maybe I’m just worried but lately it’s so hard to look forward to the things that are happening. I hope i can look back and realize that I didn’t need to worry

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Please don’t ask me on a date. please don’t try to start that up again. Just prove to me that you’re there for me. that would be a wonderful thing to have

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