I've written a lot of stupid letters to people on this website since I was 12. I'm 21 now. I used to have every single one bookmarked so I could go back and read them. Some of them have long been deleted because I knew it was time to let go of the past. 3 remain. All 3 of them about the different people who shaped me to be the person I am today... through a lot of heartbreak.

Today is about me.

I went through so much hurt and pain from those 3 people I could've sworn I loved and would spend the rest of my life with.

I gave and gave and gave but never received anything close to what I sacrificed in return.

At the time, that hurt.

But now, I am a better me.

I am someone I am in love with.

I am happy.

I am wholly myself.

No one gets to define me and my worth anymore.

So one day I might write a letter to the next boy I fall in love with and hopefully, he is the last because I finally figured out how to love myself and how to properly love someone else.

But today is a reminder for myself that I am enough.

I am kind.

I am gentle.

I am loving.

I am genuine.

I am worthy.

8 comments add comment

  • anonymous lover
5 months ago

Are you about to propose to yourself?!

Kidding!

  • untamed flame
4 months ago

Love this!

  • M
4 months ago

Good luck and you far stronger than me .

  • E
4 months ago

Good for you!! <3 Sending love.

  • K
4 months ago

This is where I’ve found myself, also at 21. I’m glad we’re growing and learning to love ourselves :.) It’ll make the future so much more worth it.

  • jday
4 months ago

I've also been coming on here for over 6 years, 22 now.

in some ways going back and reading old letters makes me happy. seeing the thought process of flourishing crushes that either turned into great love stories, tough heartbreaks, or absolutely nothing at all. and even if re-reading some things hurt, i'm glad that this space exists for all of us to grow and reflect and learn and share together. :) best of luck to you in the future xo

  • 03221998
4 months ago

22 been here since for the last 7 years

  • charm
3 months ago

very relatable! unfortunately (or fortunately?) i didn't bookmark my old letters but this site has seen me thru so many chapters. i'm 20 now and still visit here whenever i feel wistful

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