April 4,2020

Today is supposed to be a very big day in our spirit world and there is no one i rather share that with then with you. The ideal today would have gone like this..

Wake up burn one and let our bodies create the rest. Make breakfast, lay in bed in just our flesh. Our favorite thing we used to do. Read together, create a little list of what we need to get done, Speed Clean right before we go to the store, Meditate. Embrace the authentic energy we give each other. Have many conversations from topics like Food to Architecture. Life ... That's what you are to me life and although i don't get to be physically next to you everyday especially now that you are miles away, I sit here in my parents house in a room that feels so cold and empty even though the furniture fills the gaps of sorrow.

I miss you, Living with you for 3 years was .. Life, And now i feel lifeless.

I keep it together but i come apart in the night.. I could feel you do too.

We haven't talked since yesterday, 6 PM to be exact.

Baby. Why do you do this? why do you go on and off .... I love you but why do you do this to the person who believes in you the most.

I can say i'm feeling as gloomy as this weather.

But wine and smoke to keep me from feeling. Just like you.

-Reina