i just feel so alone, even though i'm surrounded by people who care about me. how does that even make sense?
Yes. You are yearning for someone to understand you? Maybe?
I get you.
It makes all the sense in the works because most people suck, but if you find a few good people who actually care about you and who you connect with, the loneliness disappears. It’s just hard to find good people. Not impossible but hard.
Just go to doctor and get some therapy it will help .i feel sad for you