We don't talk anymore because we can't talk in person, and I miss talking to you. I miss your quiet voice saying things that matter, and little details that could have been left unsaid, I'm glad they weren't though. I miss your awkward smile when I stutter and stumble over my words, I hope it wasn't obvious that it was because I was talking to you. I'm tired of initiating our conversations, but I am also tired of waiting. I want to know what you are feeling... how are you doing? Do you like me or is it all in my head?

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  • anonymous lover
4 months ago

you both are shy

someone needs to make things clear

  • anonymous lover
4 months ago

i'm sorry i don't initiate, i'm just scared that i will fall in love with you and you won't feel the same way about me.

  • anonymous lover
4 months ago

Same, shyness...

  • anonymous lover
4 months ago

Away would you be scared to fall in love anon? Were you hurt before?

  • OP
4 months ago

I suppose one could say that I’ve been hurt before, and am scared to fall head over heels only to fall apart again

  • anonymous lover
4 months ago

This letter hit hard. Sounds a lot like what I’m going through.

I’ve been deliberating over shooting him a text for... way too long, but am scared to make things awkward or come off as desperate or accidentally spill my guts unwarranted via text.

And yet. I’ll see him when I’m out and about, and we’ll awkwardly say hello, and then my heart feels like it’s going to burst for the next half hour after those interactions.

I really miss him. His sense of humor, his smile, his eagerness to talk about things. The way he’d been reaching out (and I trying to reach back) to talk with me.

Ugh. I’m a mess. Sorry for overtaking your comments section.

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