I used to write here a lot when I was younger (and I do mean a lot). So much has changed for me since then. None of the people I used to write letters about are around in my life anymore. I guess that's the thing about growing up, you spend your teenage / early adult years worrying about all these things that feel so life and death at the time, and then you look back at them and wonder why you ever let them stress you like that. All the things I experienced with them were real. From the happiness and fun, to the heartbreak and pain and worry. But I definitely learned a lot about how to tell which people in your life are meant to be transitory. I've learned so much I didn't know when I was only seventeen years old. And I know I have much still to learn.
And am thankful I bookmarked all these old letters I wrote, because I can see how far I have come within myself. So I write this for everyone who has checked letters to crushes just to see if anyone still writes here, like I just did. I write this for everyone who still puts their heart out here.
This pain is real. Whatever brought you to this webpage is real. Feel it. All of it, no matter how bad it hurts. Feel it deeply. Because it is only temporary. And the sooner you feel it, the sooner you conquer it, the less messy it will be for you later. The less it'll drag on. The less you'll have to get over it.
Remember that you accept the kind of love you think you deserve - if you think you deserve better, then accept nothing less. Those who truly deserve your love will understand and hear what you need. Those who don't will see themselves out. It will hurt when they do - but don't stop them. They're telling you who they are and you should listen.
But cherish the good moments. Even if that person hurts you in the end, or if you decide your friendship / relationship cannot last. Because those moments of laughter and fun and joy and happiness will always be real. So will the dark ones, but if you keep hold of only the good ones, then you will always look back fondly.
And never dull your shine for anyone else, no matter what.