Being competitive was part of who I was. Being playful was part of who I was. It wasn’t the whole of it but yeah. I know you don’t want battles. But it pissed me off not feeling good enough because I couldn’t make myself like you.

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  • anonymous lover
5 days ago

You can’t force yourself to feel for someone and that’s okay. Don’t be harsh on yourself because it’s out of your control.

  • OP
5 days ago

^

I meant make myself less like me and like them. Similar to their personality.

  • anonymous lover
5 days ago

Oh I see.

What makes you feel that way? Maybe there isn’t anything wrong with you. Nobody’s perfect. We all have our flaws. Recognizing any issues is the first step in improving ourselves.

  • OP
5 days ago

^

True. I knew it was stuff that she wouldn’t tolerate, and I wasn’t willing to give it up. I respected her view but knew I couldn’t give her what she wanted without giving up this part of myself.

I could see her point, but I didn’t feel valued and probably neither did she.

  • anonymous lover
5 days ago

That’s tough, OP. Your feelings are valid.

  • anonymous lover
5 days ago

I saw her. I talked to her. She seemed very perceptive and she looked like she knew exactly what she was getting into.

Maybe you underestimated her?

  • OP
5 days ago

Who the hell are you?

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