I don’t know if this person exists. I’m sorry I let you down.

If my person ever told me this, I would have said that I want nothing or no one else but them. No matter how much pain we’ve caused to each other

were you in a relationship with them anon 2. And sorry for projecting,op.

No, we weren’t...

I wish this was my person, but who knows anymore what and who to believe. I need magical powers ?

Me too. I hope someday I find a good man

What if they want you too

Don’t go

What if I am better with inconsistency now? People don't stay the same. I do still need to trust you tho.

I know you aren’t my guy. But let’s pretend you are. I miss you. I miss you leading me on. My family is okay but I am definitely not okay. 6 months later and I am still not okay. I think about you a lot and miss what we had, even if it wasn’t enough for me. Rather have not enough than none at all. If you are my guy, and you have even the slightest bit of yearning for me, you know how to contact me. So do it.

OP,

I very much doubt that you are my person. But if by some chance you are..I understand why you did what you did and I respect your decision. I’d rather you not force yourself to stay when you didn’t feel the same way or as deeply as I did for you. You really didn’t have to stop messaging me though, that hurt me a lot. You were right to think that would’ve kept me holding on even more than I already was, but it’s been awful to have gotten no closure.

My family is..about the same I guess. I sleep about as well as I ever did: never quite enough. I’ve even dreamt of you a few times. I hope you’ve been safe, warm, and comfortable, that you haven’t kept getting those nasty headaches and that you haven’t been smoking too much. But I do miss you too..it still hurts. I still think about you every day.

I want to say I’ve stopped waiting for you but I don’t think that’s completely true. I think part of me will always love you and wish you would have loved me too.

If you ever decide you’ve spent enough time figuring things out and want to come back and try again, I might not be averse..