Fuck your witholding narcissist bullshit. Again. 

I don't love you, I never have. I love the image of you I built around your lying and manipulation. I have been gullible and naive and too trusting. I take responsibility for this and the negative impact that has had on my life. You are toxic. I need to leave this situation.

I have learnt so much in my time studying over the past year though. Your behaviours and my responses have been helpful to observe and understand through therapy and my other learning. I only recently realised the extent of narcissistic/enabling codependent behaviours in family. I am going to keep learning and develop ways to become stronger, have better boundaries, to understand what I want and need, and act when things aren't acceptable for me.

I gave you the benefit of the doubt too many times. I succumbed to the fantasy. But I have no idea who you are in reality, I don't even think you know. I don't think you can be known. You seem like a fundamentally empty person. But you are someone who is highly interpersonally exploitative. You need to be managed and kept at a distance.