Abby,
I literally wrote the beginning of 5̶ 6̶ 7 different letters just now. Each one of them I was trying to stay positive and not express how I'm actually feeling. Maybe this is how you are feeling too. Maybe this is what you were trying to tell me, maybe I read the situation wrong.
The crazy thing is that, I was fine before I started writing this letter.
Sincerely,
Sad man seeking acknowledgement