I wish we would have had the chance to love each other's hurts, insecurities, fears, confusions, doubts, misunderstandings and miscommunications away.

I didn't want to be your friend which is why I kept away from you.

I wanted to fight for you so much but the truth of the fact you chose someone else had beaten me down and defeated me so badly that I didn't want to ruin a happy relationship with the woman you were with.

I love you more than you would ever know.

Despite having been on the brink of deaths door a few months ago that truth is one I can truly face and admit to myself and to you.

I love you too much to a point of no return. And that scares me too

Please forgive me for making you doubt that I loved you and still love you. Forgive me for my faults and failings that played the part in us not being together. Forgive me for making you feel less than the one I loved and treasured.