She's not a massive player or non-committal. That doesn't work for her either.

But is she proud? Yes. Does she like to tell herself sometimes that maybe someone will love her enough to never doubt what they see in her? Yes, that too.

All she can do is say sorry for sometimes being too proud to admit she really wants you to love her and see her good parts. And also apologize for using pretending not to care about what people think as a defense mechanism sometimes.