i think i’m learning that…love is a choice you make.

it’s really hard though. there’s a lot of sacrifices and compromise.

i guess i just want someone who is willing to compromise with me. overlook our differences and help me face challenges. make me laugh. bring me joy.

be a good husband. a good father. a good friend.

i can picture the life we would lead if i choose you—if you choose me. it has to be your choice just as much as mine i’m realizing.

…i don’t really want to choose yet. that’s why it’s easier that i said no. i think i know how to make love work to be honest. it’s just my heart doesn’t feel ready because it’s still very in love with you.

and that’s the issue. i’m having trouble being all in for someone else because i don’t want to be all in for someone else at all.

what a messy situation.

- pinkfluffyclouds