When you realize no one cares about you is when you just..stop. No one loves you, no one cares, no one wants you, no one wants you around. When no one just loves you is tragic. To know that not a single person would ever notice your absence or can accept you aren't coming back that's when you know it's over. From the people I begged to love me to having no one on my side. Only way to feel these feelings out is being numb. I've been numb my whole life. I'll get what I deserve but holy fuck I thought stars made up your eyes, the sun radiated from your soul, a heart as magnetic as the moon and tides it arose in my eyes, galaxies and constellations scattered over your body. You'll never know that. No one ever does.