This is difficult to describe and nothing I’d ever tell you, not the least of which because I barely know you and because it’s so intense, but right now, to me, you’re all that’s beautiful in this world. Everything else is bland and dull or pain or war. The fleeting moments where I see you are sublime glimpses into the meaning of life, and while inside this fire burns and I long for an us that never will be, on the outside I have to pretend that you’re just another woman, just some minor acquaintance. Your absence is heavy nothingness. I have to suppress my feelings for you. Keep them trapped. So there’s no outlet. No closure. I can’t be with you, I know that, but I can’t even move on, at least not now. But I’ll confess one day, when the time is right, when telling you what you inspire me - quiet strength, complete beauty, effortless grace - and what you mean to me won’t create the mess that it would now. I’ve written it already, and even though obviously I’m not looking forward to the point where our ways part, I ache to tell you, to stop pretending you’re not the most special person I’ve ever met, who from one moment to the next inexplicably, magically made me feel as never before, to stop pretending I don’t love you to the ends of the Earth because indeed crazily I do, and to be released and finally be free.

9 comments add comment

  • Anon
3 months ago

Know that you are not alone.. I also ache for my love for him to be returned.

  • anonymous lover
3 months ago

I feel this so much!

  • anonymous lover
3 months ago

I hope this is not for me, he lost his chance and will never have my trust

  • J
3 months ago

Wow. I feel this exact same way

  • E
3 months ago

Feeling the same for her.

  • K
3 months ago

This is absolutely beautiful and I’m sure they’d love to hear it when the time is right.

  • h
2 months ago

i feel the same way

  • A
2 months ago

Magical connexions seem to be happening… its crazy. It feels surreal.

  • ave
2 months ago

wow. i wrote a letter similar to this topic a few minutes ago. your letter portrays how im feeling rn possibly better than my own letter did. <3

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