I wish I got noticed, noticed by the ones that I like and be called beautiful for once instead of being called by them ugly, a freak, unusual, an oddball.

I’m not a freak, I struggle with people therefore I cowardly smile and freeze up when I’m trying to talk to someone I find attractive.

So If I freeze in front of you like a rabbit in the car lights and go 'Err-erm', before extending what I was going to say and completely stuttering over all the words that escape my mouth. Then congratulations, I find you 100% attractive and I’m not even lying ... 100% ... even if you don’t think you are.

However, knowing my luck I’ll smile and you’ll shout UGLY. I’ve got a good heart, I know I’ve made some awful-awful mistakes that I regret from my past, but if somebody ever fell for me truly without the manipulation part...

(Metaphorically) I would hold their heart gracefully in my hands as if it was a glass ornament.

But that’s only in my dream world, unless I am blind.