Hi,

I miss hearing from you. Are you okay? I'm not proud of what I've done to you, abandoning you when you needed me the most. I understand why you're defensive and not trusting me. That's what I deserve after all.

Forgive me for not being a good friend. Not standing beside you. Choosing others over you who's better and more interesting. You bring joy to the talk, you manage to make things pleasant naturally. I was a jerk and a fool.

I adore you.

(this is just a message I'd like to receive. maybe someday this happens. If don't, that's ok. Moving on is always the path).