I wonder if, during those times we spoke face to face, you could see in my eyes how I was feeling about you. I don't think I blushed, but my heart was pounding for sure. Could you see in my eyes that I wanted to kiss you? We held eye contact a lot. I got butterflies when you'd smile and say my name. Is it possible you were attracted to me, too? I wish I could've read your mind. Maybe it was all in my head. I still can't help but think about you. What could've been if we'd met under different circumstances. There was a time I thought you might have a crush on me, too. Maybe you did. The idea still excites me. I knew I shouldn't but I fell for you anyway. Now I'm trying so hard to let you go. I wish I could tell you I love you. I don't know why we were destined to meet, only for nothing to come of it. It's not like we could've acted on it, anyway. Well, I'll have to be content with loving you from afar. I don't even know where you are tonight. You don't know it, but a piece of my heart is with you. Probably always will be. I hope you're happy and well. Maybe someday I'll see you again. I really hope so.

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  • anonymous lover
one year ago

I feel all of this too. You are married, correct?

  • anonymous lover
one year ago

Curious about the above question as well^ I’ve felt all those things too except I was the awful person crushing on a married coworker. Hope it gets better!

  • OP
one year ago

Yes, I am married. How did you know?

  • anonymous lover
one year ago

Well if you were her, you would know that I know that you are married. Correct?

  • OP
one year ago

Um..what?

  • OP
one year ago

@ 2nd anon: if you don't mind my asking, how long ago was your crush on your married coworker?

  • 2nd anon
one year ago

If I’m honest… not that long ago. Sometimes I still get butterflies but am trying to move past it by keeping things professional

  • OP
one year ago

@2nd anon I know I shouldn't be thinking like this but I was kinda hoping you were her. I realize you're not and I'm a terrible person for wishing that in the first place.

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