Now I just realize why it's called "crush". Some "crushes" are just meant to break your heart. But, bestie, it is okay to be hurt, sad, and lost. But hopefully it will not take such a long time because someone needs you and you deserve better. You think they are perfect, but that doesn't mean they are the best for you. Everyone has their own special pair that can complete their lives. I hope we meet them soon at our best time.