grieving someone who’s still alive and well, just out of your reach, is an experience i wouldnt wish on my worst enemy.

it’s seeing them live a normal life on social media and feeling sick that you couldn’t live that life with them. feeling almost betrayed that they’re doing fine without you.

it’s having something interesting happen to you and getting ready to tell them, only to realize that you can’t anymore.

it’s dying to reach out but second guessing every time. will it even be the same? do they even want to hear from me

it’s hearing a song you used to listen to together and feeling like you were plunged into a vat of cold water

it’s crushing loneliness, no matter who you’re around, they just don’t compare to who you lost

it’s nothing short of awful.