Having to pretend day in and day out that I'm perfectly fine and happy is wearing on me. I am in love with someone in secret that I can never have and who doesn't love me back. Hell, I haven't had any contact with her in so very long but she's in my thoughts when I'm awake and she is sometimes in my dreams. I'm depressed, anxious, feeling like a failure in my career, have so few friends and feel like an outsider with my peers. I can't open up to my loved ones about any of this. Either they don't understand, don't seem to care or both. Some have made fun of me, some have judged harshly and some just tell me that absolutely worthless advice of "just cheer up, you're being melodramatic." What am I supposed to do when there's no one to turn to for help? So I suffer in silence, put on a smiling face and hide once in awhile to let the tears flow.

13 comments add comment

  • anonymous lover
4 months ago

Im sure they’re thinking about you too

  • OP
4 months ago

I wish I could believe she thinks about me. god that would make me so very happy.

  • Anon
4 months ago

Gosh this reminds me of my person 💔💔oh how I miss them!!

  • anonymous lover
4 months ago

I wish you was my person. I miss him and think about him lots. Xx

  • anonymous lover
4 months ago

What's their initial? Yours?

  • anonymous lover
4 months ago

Haha it sucks how much i'm in the same boat as you op.

  • anonymous lover
4 months ago

What's her initials, just the last initial will do.

  • anonymous lover
4 months ago

If you were my person. Id say stay strong.

  • C
3 months ago

Same except I’ve only fell in love years later and I’m not free to express it circumstances are difficult

  • anonymous lover
3 months ago

Is your initial J?

  • OP
3 months ago

^ Yes, it is.

  • OP
3 months ago

Anon above, can I ask what your initial is?

  • anonymous lover
2 months ago

I feel this. I'm also going through it. I get you

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