I pushed you away because I was scared of my own emotions for you. But, turns out, it didn’t matter. The difference now is that I don’t even know what we could’ve been. I didn’t allow it because I was too scared of being hurt. Yet, here I am, hurting regardless. Sometimes I think about reaching out to apologize, because I think I hurt you. But it would be weird. You’ve moved on with her. I can only blame myself and force myself to let go of the thought of you. For what’s it worth, though you’ll probably never read this, I am sorry J.