Decaf,
Oh lord how hard life is now that you're in the picture. I used to think that my ex was there but in reality you were there first. You're a pretty nice kid, you're christian, got a simple personality, and all you every really wanna do is sit out in the cold weather drinking decaf coffee or hunt. You're not like my past exes, who were taking advantage of me. You're really there for me, and I thank you for it. You have a crush on me and I have a crush on you but i'm scared to fall in love again.
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Tom,
I still miss you. It's getting better but I wish we could talk, even though I know that wouldn't help in the long run. I feel kinda empty without you. Miss your handsome face and sexy body, and how you used to make me laugh and smile all day long.
It's almost 2 years since we layed eyes on each other and I just can't forget. I have nothing to offer you, so I just need to keep these suppressed feelings to myself.
Hi,
I really want to get over you. Every time I come close, i think of how life would just feel so much nicer with you in it. It’s pathetic because life existed before you, but Jesus you changed mine! you changed my life, i wish you understood.
He has a recital in a little under 2 weeks, I wonder if he'll let me go or if he'll be nervous
I just want to hear his beautiful playing again
riding in your car, leading you with google maps, both of us laughing at my bad directions. it felt so nice. i felt so safe. you're so beautiful. i love your laugh. i notice when our gazes meet for too long and you smile. i want to give you a hug. i wish your childhood hadn't been so horrible and you were shown love. i wish you would accept my love. i have so much of it to give to you. i wish you would love me back. i want to kiss you. i can't stop thinking about you as a child, so scared and so lonely and hiding from your grandma as she screamed at you for crying when you were only a child because men should never cry she said. I wish so badly you could give me some of your pain so i can carry it. i'm strong enough for both of us. but i can only do so much. i have to watch from a distance because i can only do so much, well you only let me do so much. i wish you would let me in. you never say i love you to people and it does hurt when you don't say it back, but it's okay, i love you too much to ever hold it against you. i'm tired. goodnight. you make my heart flutter. just one hug. it's all i want.