Trying to change people is the worst approach to relationships. Maybe it sometimes works, but a lot of times resentment grows out of that.
I'm coming to the conclusion that extreme changes would be required for coexistence. And all of what I've exeprienced so far has been horrid, and should be expected behavior.
I'm too old for this.
There are alot of sickos and narcissist on the spider web. I have seen bots on here, and social engineering is a thing. I'm not a hostile person, but I see so much hostility on here. I guess that should be expected, or perceived as predictable.
I’m wanting you in my arms tonight but I know it’s not the right time. I need you to figure out your on and off situation before I can even let you into my life. I can be a lot sometimes and it’ll take some time before I can even trust you.
Watching a Breakdown of "Auntie Diaries" by a Trans-Woman
Auntie Diaries, Kendrick Lamar
Now that I am forced to deal with my current relationship and I know for a fact I am leaving him this year, I almost don’t even think of you at all. You really were a distraction keeping me from facing my problems. I literally feel nothing for you. Incredible.
Is this all a dream? The facts lean in that direction, although I felt like we had moments in person, and I felt like we had moments shadow texting, I still think this is all in my head. It's not real, well except for Abby, but does that make it real?
Either way, I finally installed my washing machine I bought from ~2 years ago today, progress 🤷♀️?! I also mowed about 35% of my lawn (mostly the front). Instead of celebrating today, I did things that I should have already done. Growth 🤷♀️?!
I think I might be moving back into my "Primary" Bedroom. I just have to primarily get a new King Size mattress. That shouldn't be too difficult. I also need to get a new Bed Pad, I guess that's what it's called. Maybe I'll get one of those at Lenox tomorrow. I wonder if they have a Willy's there, because that would be perfect for my current diet.