i want to haunt you. i want to be desired. if not by my husband, then you. someone. anyone. is 35 desirable? i missed my youth and now im this …shell of a thing with teeth and veins. 

trying to get pregnant 5 days out of every month but haven’t had an orgasm in years. the fuq is all this? I did the story. all the right steps. box checked.

but so empty. floating. smiling. networking. lipservice. she will never be satisfied.

-ghost girl

How many times are you going to violate human rights by having Aaron do that?

Why is he in the building? Why is he allowed to abuse and torture? Why is he allowed to put people in the hospital and cause short term and long term physical damage to his victims?

He’s continued to do this since January 10th. Why are the appropriate authorities not doing anything? He admitted to everything. He exonerated the two of them. He is thrilled at the idea he gets to keep doing it and is currently making plans to further abuse people. 

He does not want to stop. Is anyone going to do anything? Or are you incapable of upholding the rights and freedoms and human dignities of people who do not consent and are unwilling victims to his abuse and that of any other associate of his?

We all know two years didn’t have a point. It was for the entertainment value. We are well aware and don’t need to argue on that. It was absolutely pointless.

So maybe at this point, you might want to do something that actually helps people. We don’t stand by anyone who abuses us, no matter who they are. It’s enough. It stops now. We are done.

It's been 24 hrs since the last time we talked.

You told me that when I turned eighteen, I could come to the States and live with you. And eventually marry you. And I agreed, because I loved you. I guess.

We had a plan. A schedule to keep in touch despite my strict parents. A promise to be together the day I become an adult. And we also had some other conversations. About how you would come to secretly hang out with me while I was in the States for spring break. About how we could hide the truth from the world.

You said that you would pretend that you were younger. You told me that you'd wait for me till I come of age.

I sent hearts to you. I smiled and blushed every time you texted me. I didn't think it was wrong till I thought about something.

If someone ever found out, your life, your career, everything you cared for would be destroyed. And I didn't want to see that.

I also didn't want to see the disappointed expression on my parents' face, after finding out that their eldest daughter has been talking to a man nine years her senior. It was wrong and illegal, and in the eyes of the law, I am a child, and you are an adult.

So I made the choice to cut you off. Abruptly, because I hate goodbyes. I hope one day you'll find a girl who you don't have to wait for. A girl who you can parade around with shady looks from acquaintances.

Most people would say that you played with a mind. That you made a fourteen year old girl lose her wits over you. But I don't think that's the case. i think i truly loved you for that short period of time.

It's not I don't love you, it's that I can't love you.

You think that no one would ever find out, but I know that all lies are bound to have holes. Even if we made it till I turn of age, how are we supposed to face everyone? With the fake story you suggested?

Another part of me hopes that you never loved me. If you didn't, this would be easier.

why won’t you love me?

A piece of my heart.

A shard of a gemstone.

Used to be with you.

Just ask me out already lol. All of the signs on both of our parts, You drive me bonkers.


when i come here i feel like the old lady from donnie darko constantly checking the mailbox for a letter that never comes

i miss you...

it hasn't even been 24 hrs

about to make a decision i may regret or i may be the happiest ive ever been

Never again I'm trying this manifest your SP thingy.

It worked? Yes. This happiness didn't last. I should have tried anything else like attracting NEW person and new beginnings. Not an old affair with hopes of him treating me better.