Praying my special someone is happy and well-taken care of by whoever they are with. I wish it was me but that will never be the case. All I can do is love from afar.

you claimed to like me but then you showed me how much you liked her.. perhaps even more than me.. why did you have to disrespect me like this?

Hi Maureen!

i realised i deserve so much better. thank you for walking away, because i never would’ve did, God knows. i would’ve tolerated your psychological abuse, i probably would’ve even married you. you were no good to me after june 2019. you’re not fit to be the father of my future children - if not for me, never for them. i was most definitely not perfect, but i gave you all of me. so, thank you for walking away. i wash my hands off of you.

I had good ideas too.

you kept on looking at me yesterday

i don’t even know your name and you dont know mine

you immediately looked away, and so did i

ur cute :)

how can I not get so attached to people?

It doesn't feel good but I have to love myself. Sometimes I look in the mirror and see a darkness. This makes me realize just how badly I need to sort out my issues. How disheartening to think I've finally made a friend I can relate to, only for them to not want to engage with me. How disheartening to think men have only ever tolerated me for my body. How disheartening to think that love has only ever been conditional for so long. It really hurts to think about. It makes me feel lonely. It makes me feel like there's something wrong with my very core.

- O

the fact we could have been the perfect couple, if he decided i was worth the distance. the 1hr distance.