You are bored the whole day. I'm sick and I don't feel like going out or walking (call it being lazy) but just because I'm taking care of my own body and not have energy to force myself to have time for you doesn't mean I'm selfish. If me bitching at you about how stupid you are for being the selfish one then I won't apologize for it. What you want isnt clearly my priority if today is my only day off and the only time I can rest before I wake up tomorrow and work for the rest of 6 days (still dealing with the headache and cold).
Im scared of moving out with you. If we were both financially fine and you show that to me then I would love to throw everything for you. I can move out myself but having you their just made me feel like everything will go to shit. Especially when I don't feel safe. It's a new environment for me and you are not really making me feel like your trusting of this. Being your girl is not easy and it's a struggle everyday because you are a hot headed man who gives a shit to people's simple glance to you. I'm scared being out there with you because you had no problem swearing at me when we were out before. Yes I'm being negative but they are things that I'd think of when you ask me why I'd rather go out with a friend to watch movies than you.
Isn't it the worst when you're in love with someone who isn't in love with you?
I am scared that having an abortion will haunt me for the rest of my life, even if I know it's the right decision for me, for us, now.
I have never felt more terrified of being in my own body, or more doubtful of my own mind.
And now, here I am, with my friends eyeing the two of us twirl around the dance floor at the wedding and watching him make me a drink at 3am. Here I am, waking up to his texts, asking me about my trip and when he'll see me again, when he never used to text me. Here I am, fully realizing that he acts differently towards me than he did before.
Sad when you’re building castles in your mind for someone who probably doesn’t even think about you.