It’s feels great to actually a conversation with a guy that was both mentally stimulating and funny.
Boys are gold diggers.
That's why they created a defelction stereotype about women.
He took my face in both hands, tilted my chin, and forced me to meet his gaze.
He said, “I know you hate eye contact. But you’re gonna look at me when I tell you that you’re my girl.”
And I think I’m finally convinced.
He just might stay, and I just might let him.
It’s been two years and I still think of you every day.
It’s been 2 years and I still think of you every
every day like a little new leaf full of promise shaking
shaking in the wind in my head like
like I’m over here I’m over here don’t you love me and I think a little I do don’t you miss me yes but I don’t know what to do about it
it is ok sometimes but i still think of you away in new york and if i think too hard i start breathing toooo
too hard and
and the wind starts up again and it’s shaking
Oh no, I think I’ve got a crush on you.
We haven’t seen each other for a few weeks until today. we met at the lab and you took me to a different room to fill me in on new ideas. You took a step back from and just stared at me with the biggest smile, I couldn’t help but reciprocate. Then at the same time we both said “how are you, good? Good!” And smiled again.
It also seemed like you were about to go into a hug but didn’t. When I was about to leave, I reached out for a hug and you gave me one and it was a long big hug. You held me pretty tightly and for a good time. Then I said I was glad you were coming back to the project cause I missed having you around.
On my way out, you were teasing me and giving me a hard time about my campaign but when I texted you later if you wanted one of my campaign shirts, you responded right away with a “hell yes!” (meant a lot especially since you told me earlier that you are bad at responding)
Shoot, I can’t help these silly feelings for you
We’re getting a little obvious-
But... I’m not ashamed of you, so I don’t mind.
1 1/2 years.
i need to stop loving you joshua, but ive loved you for so long that stopping feels as though im losing a part of myself. you've been with me for so long, through every cry and laughter and sloppy breakdown, but you're hers now. and my love we were never meant to be. especially when you end our phone calls early because ur sweetheart is waitimg