I love you. My family loves you. My friends love you. Everyone says we are perfect for each other. We lean on each other. Talk and joke with each other. Laugh together. Play together. Pray together. We are best friends. We have a lot in common and a lot of differences. We tease and argue but always with a smile. We can't live without each other, and yet I'm still not sure if this is a friend love or an in love feeling. I'm torn between the two. You have decided on the first. My heart hurts bc I'm not sure that's who I want to be. I've never been this close to anyone, but I'm afraid of things changing and us growing apart. I can't lose you. It would kill me. I don't know what to do anymore.

It's a beautiful day in the neighborhood

A beautiful day for a neighbor

Could you be mine?

Would you be mine?

My ex posted a picture with his new girlfriend. She’s absolutely beautiful and seems so sweet. But still, it stung a little seeing them together. Not because I miss him, but I miss who he used to be.

I miss who we used to be.

I'm falling in love with how softly you speak to me.

I'm not ready. I am emotionally not ready for a relationship.

However, I do wish to be with him. I just.. don't wan't to ruin his precious heart all because I'm unsteady and unstable. :(

I just want it to be him and my mind has manifested so many scenarios and what if's that if it's not him,

that wave of delusion is going to hit pretty damn fucking hard.

One day I may stop thirsting after men who are far too old for me and could ruin my life, but today is not that day.

For the first time in my life, I thought he liked me back. But now I’m not so sure because this other girl is super flirty to him and he reciprocates. Sigh, getting your hopes up is so hard sometimes. And it hurts when you’re not their first choice.

these days i can't seem to find a guy who's single and interested and if they are single and interested, i'm usually not interested in them.

ugh.

Deje de quererte cuando empece a valorarme

Y a tocar mas piso que nubes

Mas vida que inercia

Mas risas que melancolia