Cryptic love for you, my love:

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Love, By: Storm

I just want you to be honest with me, is that really too much to ask?

friendship is not a loss. i’d rather be your friend than nothing at all. why does it feel like I’m going to lose you the second i tell you we shouldn’t sleep together anymore.

I remember that night when I was staying yours; we were sat on your sofa drinking and listening/singing along to music, I put my legs on top of yours, and you started touching them and I looked over to you and we both had that smile...it's things like that made me think that you had feelings for me...considering that wasn't even the only thing that happened that very same night, can you not understand how confused I am about this whole situation? I know we had a drink, but I'm pretty sure that things had been building up between us for months?! I don't know why I even still think about it all, but I really don't think that I'm wrong to think that maybe, just maybe you did have feelings for me too?

juan, why do i feel like you deserve someone better than me?

When you tell me about how you're both going to go out for meals, meet up and go for a drink and have sex...it's something I really don't need to hear, nor is it something I want to know. You know it upsets me, so why feel the need to say it to me? You're a private person, so don't over share that with me, I don't want to know. I'm happy you've got him back in your life again, and I think it's amazing how he makes you happy, but please don't go into the details knowing my feelings for you.

I talked to this guy last night. It was normal, friendly banter. I wished him the best and carried on to mingle with other people. But I kept feeling him staring at me. I could see him out the corner of my eye but I figured he was probably just looking in my general direction and I was being paranoid and self conscious. My sister met up with me and says “why does that guy keep looking at you? He‘s just staring at you.” and I just shrugged my shoulders.

I was comfortable right up until she confirmed he was watching me. From that point forward, I was paranoid and started getting anxiety.

I guess my point is that if you have a feeling someone is hardcore watching you, you’re probably right. Also, it’s not nice to stare at people.

I think there's still a lot of unresolved sexual tension between us...

you’ve been in a lot of my dreams lately

I used to write a lot about you. For you.

But now I write for me.

-orchids