There’s no longer an entire Wisconsin between us.
You want to see me.
I’m both excited and terrified.
I want to see you, too.
I might drive out to your place. I might also end up in California with an alternate identity.
Decisions.
no one talks about how much work is required in real, true love. like actually. we hear that “marriage is hard work” and “it’s not all sunshine and rainbows” but not what that actually means. im learning- slowly. im sorry for getting so upset with you. i love you and i choose to love you instead of letting stress get the best of both of us. t minus 30 days till the big day. my forever crush, my angel, my tender boy.
You really are such a player. And you’re so shameless about it.
I, on the other hand... well, if I really was as flippant as I try to come off, life would be easier.
‘Wow yes I feel it too yes this is it I love you too....’
‘....I was just being nice.’
ah.
in just two days we will be united, we will only have a few days but any time within your reach is going to be marvelous.
plans have changed just a bit and we have the potential for one more night together. i am still waiting to hear if you are able to adjust your previous arrangements but i just prematurely reserved a cabin for that night near the water. if this works out it will be a wonderful surprise and if you are unable to make it, i will enjoy the secluded shore to myself with my book.
i am going to have to bite my tongue hard to not let you know about all of my plans for us until you get here. i am growing unreasonably restless to see you, especially since we are now in the same state.
you said we are less than 100 hours away from each other this morning. only about 130 more miles to go. such a breeze compared to the couple of thousand between us on an average day. our existence has been purely digital and there is nothing i want more than to just be able to hold your hand.
i love you and i'm looking forward to saying it while getting lost in your eyes.