It is, I suppose, a bit unfair that I want someone willing to do the digging, to see beyond the bland exterior that strangers see when they look at me.

It is wrong to expect someone to turn their interior telescope to see the hidden layers beneath. To take their pickaxes to the layers of mistrust and brush away the minute granules of deflection that I can put up.

To sit beside all of my broken pits and pieces during the long nights with gentle patience, until I'm ready to bring forth and show a little more of myself.

To piece together the meaning behind the puzzle of my sometimes confusing and cryptic phrases as I try to put words to my feelings that are like sculptures, paintings, colors,architectures, 3D images complete with music that even the potent magic of words fail to appropriately capture.

To see, to appreciate, To feel and to love me.

But alas, the work, the patient digging, brushing, and waiting to earn my trust is more than it would be fair to ask anyone to do.

I know this. I feel this to the core of my bone and my being.

And yet, I still wish that someone with kind eyes and a gentle soul,

would at least want to try.


 -Nameless Nobody

I have been thinking about how I could possibly tell you how much you mean to me. Hopefully I'm not distracting you from anything!

I can be charming with everyone except for the person I actually like, then I turn into an awkward idiit that forgets how to communicate.

-R

I just don't understand why this isn't getting easier.

Hi, just know that you are loved

Hey..I hope you've been doing okay and taking care of yourself. I’ve taken time to step back and think and re-assess things but feel like I'm not getting too far. I'm still hurt and confused and feel like I didn’t get closure, and I really want to know what’s been on your mind. It's taken me quite a while to think of what I wanted to say and get the nerve to actually send it. My hands are shaking as we speak. 

So I am still in love with you to this day. I just want you to know how I feel about you truly.

You appeared and disappeared suddenly, like a lightning bolt. But for that one powerful moment, I genuinely felt you were the embodiment of my destiny. I really did.

I accepted it already, but it still makes me sad.

you’re the first person i want to meet when this all ends