I dont think I could ever get sick of seeing you smile

Do you need to be wanted so much that I come and get you? Is that what it will take?

I miss you and I love you 😔

I feel kinda sad and empty right now. I've wished for so long to stop loving you and for this obsession to end. Part of me wants it back but mostly I don't because it made me miserable. But it's left a bit of a void not gonna lie. It's a good thing tho because it gives me space to fill it with things that are healthy and get my needs met. I'm melancholic. But also relieved and know there's new possibilities just around the corner.

He gives good advice. He thinks with his head, and his head is on good shoulders. If I asked him what I should do, he'd tell me to stop talking to you because I'm setting myself up to get hurt. But you are him. He is you. I like you. So should I take your advice?

look how beautiful the moon is tonight....wherever you are we are looking at the same sky…

Fear has caused me to wait too long, and now you're gone

the way we loved was this: wholehearted, retracted. a lemon drop i was sure tasted like the moon. it was bright pink, it was chained up, it was wedding china shattered, it was falling asleep on a train & waking to the find the world ever so slightly altered. it was youthful, it was loud, it threw fate's red string for a loop. when i finished my tea, the leaves held no omens. it was a heartbeat, early & monstrous. it was a cold night & a voice on the radio

The worst thing that I've ever done was what I did to you. I can never make it up to you. I can never take it back. It's been so long that I'm sure it doesn't hurt anymore. And you probably don't think of me hardly ever these days. And I guess that's why I wrote all those horrible things. How I lied to you. I was already used to being left behind and forgotten, that I didn't even realize what I was doing would hurt you.

And you cried.

You would bawl your eyes out over me. Your broken voice and your whimper. I sit alone and it echoes off the walls in my head now.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry," is literally all I can do and think. I deserved every horrible thing you gave back to me. But the worst thing you ever did was leave thinking that I never loved you.

I always have.

I loved your morning voice. I loved your hugs and kisses. I loved the moments you made me your own. I loved just sitting with you, watching TV, maybe a walk. And that Halloween. I loved how soft your skin was and how you would laugh at me. I loved how hard you tried and how much you cared. I loved the way you would cheer me up or make me laugh. I loved getting high with you and just being toxic. I loved how you would understand. I loved how you would always figure ways out to improve us. I loved the way you smelled and the times you touched my face. I loved that you loved me even when I couldn't love myself. I loved that you didn't forgive me and that you moved on.

I love that you're happy now.

Oh man I’m gay