you didn’t stay long enough for me to see any of your flaws so now I’m left with this image of you as an ideal person and nobody else is going to be able to live up to that and it’s not fair.

Today it started drizzling rain and you were really excited. Grumpy me says: "What's so good about rain?" Eyes shining, you say happily: "Well if I was a little frog, I'd be so excited that my lily pad is finally going to be a bit wet. And if I was a little snail I could poke my head out and see what's going on. And if I was an earthworm, I'd come out of the ground and wriggle around and have an epic dance party."

And now I'm not so grumpy about the rain anymore and you're officially the cutest.

everyone thinks I’m full of smart deep thoughts when in all honesty all I ever think about is you and food, food and you

I miss you. You are my favorite person in the world. Whenever I see you and look into your dark brown eyes, I know that I am undoubtly in love with you 100%. You are my best friend so I can't risk that. I've loved you for a little less than 3 years.

LTC thanks for being here for me since 2015. I have written letters anonymously and with different pseudonyms, but all to the same person. Before I leave this website for good and begin to move on from my 8 year crush, I have a last letter to write. This is to you and to anyone who cares to read this. 

If you have feelings for someone, let them know. They deserve to know how you feel and that they’re admired, and you deserve to express how you feel and let it out of your system. Keeping it inside you sucks. Sometimes, a person may be waiting on you to make a move, especially if she’s a girl. Men, I’m talking to you: MAKE A MOVE BROS. You’ll never know for sure until you take your shot. To quote the famous Wayne Gretzky:

You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take.

If you have any negative thoughts about yourself, ERASE IT pronto! Don’t overthink! Walk up to them, take a deep breath, and let it out to them. They may reject you, but it’s better than being stuck with what if’s. These what if’s have haunted me for the past 6 years in every waking moment and in my dreams. Who knows what could’ve happened then and how different life could’ve went, but that doesn’t matter now.

Life’s so short. The older I get, time keeps getting faster. The years add up quick. If you’re waiting for someone, don’t wait. Keep it moving. Don’t hold onto someone who doesn’t realize your worth. Maybe you gave them your best and even risked your mental health in the process for a fantasy. For thinking that they’ll have a change of heart. For thinking that they will want you like you’ve been wanting them for who knows how long. But it’s time to put yourself first, to put your dreams and goals first, to believe in yourself.

I love you all. Take care. :-)

I know that the biggest lies are the lies we tell ourselves but...

Every time I get even just a glimpse of the reality of it all, it kills me. And so I'd rather not know about the other side of the coin, rather hide its existence from myself. I just cannot bear the thought of not only losing you, but losing the memories that I still hold the dearest.

The lie that you think about me the same way I think about you. The lie that there is always hope.

I miss you so much.

god i have written so many songs about you and none of them sound any good but every time i sing them i think of you and your voice and your hair and your smile and it makes quarantine a little less bad

I just want to see your face and hear your voice in the real world again. I want to be near you again. I’d have done things a lot differently if I had known I’d still be feeling like this after all this time.

I may have to crash my car into your car so we can talk. Don't worry, I have excellent coverage.

Or you can crash into me...please aim for my right rear side. I need that damn bumper replaced anyway since the last person that hit me there while parked took off.

I am totally serious. Please crash into me otherwise we will always be just 2 ships in the night.

It would be so worth it to me.

That car means nothing to me compared to what I have always felt for you. Actually nothing compares.

It’s pretty funny how you downplay yourself and act like you’re nothing special. I could write a book about you and then write a sequel of how you make me feel. Throw in all of the daydreams I’ve had of you and we’ve got ourselves a trilogy.