I hate how much control I let my emotions get over me. I hate how with every word you say, I'm already breaking it down in my head and forming 100 possible reasons as to why you would say that. Do you mean it? Is it a joke? Are you trying to tell me something?

It's crazy and unnecessary. But just once, just once, I wish you could reassure me like you once did, a long time ago.

I just want someone to fall in love with me! Is that such a crime. I’m not the prettiest and I’m not the most amazing person but doesn’t everyone deserve love. Rebecca you deserve love!

I only ever acted distant towards you because I never knew what was going on in your mind. One minute we were good, laughing, having good banter with each other; then there were other times that you could barely look at me and would act so cold towards me. I miss you a lot and our friendship, but it would never be how it was before you sent that message to me. I hope you're keeping well, and I'm looking forward to seeing you again once all this is over, even though it won't be in a setting I would prefer.

I want to believe in love. I want to believe in you. But I don't believe in me.

It’s funny how when sometimes you’re unsure about something and all the sudden you get a flood of messages from the universe and it makes it clear what you should do. even though you pretty much know anyways...the nudge in the right direction is a blessing.

you ever look back and realize how unhappy you were? keep going.

It takes a lot of conviction to accept that someone doesn't feel the same way you do. It's not easy, I've spent plenty of time crying, confused, and heading back up the stairs of adrenaline towards you. But at a certain point you know. Your gut will always know, that maybe they are not the one for you. Not because of who you are, not because of who they are, but simply because it is not to be, and that is okay.

Why do I have a funny feeling we are going to wind up together???

“I really like you”

“I really like you too”

*cool... now what*

“Bye”

*runs off down the corridor*

I'm in love with you. I shouldn't, I really shouldn't. But all I want to do is spend as much time with you as I can.