This is dedicated to all those who are alone in this Christmas Eve. 

To those whose parents are working, those who alone looking at the social media updates from others with sadness wishing you was in their shoes. 

To those who didn’t get any presents. Those who are eating a meal all by themselves. 

To those who haven’t gotten any “Merry Christmas” messages or anyone who didn’t check in on em. Where the heat isn’t on, and you’re freezing at home with layers of clothes on.

To those who are drowning in their loneliness and silent sadness. 

To those who are seeing others kissing under the mistletoe and wondering where the fuck is their Christmas romance.  

It’s all good. You ain’t alone. Many people are going through this right now.

There is a reason the suicide rate increases massively around this time. 

The loneliness crosses a certain threshold and after that you know what sadly happens to many people. Add the shitty cold weather and you know the rest

Here’s a toast to those who have the courage to put a smile on, to find the gratitude and the silver linings no matter how bad it gets🥂

Respect on your name 💯

Chem M.D

Feeling sad tonight because I'm graduated and jobless and the love of my life is on the opposite side of the planet

Too much long distance. I miss you.




I'm learning.... slowly, very slowly to come out of my shell.

my heart is in free fall.

I have been trying to find the words for days. But they all fall short.

I've been on this site for a long time, I've read thousands of letters over the years. Every once in a great while I would read one about someone losing someone. I never thought that I'd be writing one of those.

I've never known pain like this. It all comes in waves but much like the sea, it's unrelenting. It hits me so hard every time. Every morning I wake up and remember that it's not a bad dream and I cry. I don't know how to eat, or sleep, or work, or do anything normal. I haven't been able to enjoy songs or tv or movies.

I don't know how to be a person anymore. I don't know how to be me without you here anymore. Everything reminds me of you and it destroys me.

My heart is so broken.

I know things got complicated and messed up. But I should've called you on your shit. I should've made you talk to me and open up. I know why you kept yourself from me, I know why you didn't think we could ever be together, but none of it even matters now. I'm so sorry I didn't stay.

I'm so sorry. For everything. I should have done so many things different.

There were so many more things I wanted to tell you, stories to share with you, memories to make with you. I had so many plans. I've learned you can never have enough memories or photos or videos with someone.

I didn't just lose the guy that I loved, I lost a true friend.

Your family broke my heart at your wake. I had never met them before but they knew who I was as soon as I walked up, our friend had sent them the video of us from a few weeks ago. They hugged me and I cried all over them. Your parents told me I could come over to their house anytime.

I went to say goodbye to your family after your funeral and your dad took my hand and walked me over to all the flowers from the service and gave me a vase of them. When he took my hand, I couldn't stop thinking about how the last person to hold my hand was you.

You meant the world to me, I would've done anything for you. I loved you no matter what. I wish I hadn't been so scared to show you that.

I wish I could've told you while you were still here. I miss you so much. I miss your voice, and your smile, and your laugh. It hurts so, so much.

You will always live on in my heart.

Thank you for everything.

I think it’s sweet when guys are shy. It’s nice to know I’m not the only one who feels this way. I’m terrified with my current guy crush. It makes it harder when you are trying to get a relationship started. If neither parties move, nothing can happen and you might miss out on good love. I think just remember they are just a person too, who wants to be loved just like you. It would mean the world to them too.

i fantasize way too much about suddenly finding a letter on here from you confessing your love for me and being with you but i know you're not as sappy and emotional as me

Being opposites isn’t the problem. Maybe you like winter and he loves fall. Maybe you are outgoing and he is shy. Those things can keep a relationship interesting.

The problem is when you don’t share the same values.

I got into a fight with my boyfriend, i got so mad i hung up on him and wouldnt answer his calls so he sent a heart shapped pizza to my house with a post it that said “im sorry”. So now im here, crying and eating pizza and hating that i ever told him about my weakness.