The only way you exist in my life now is as memories. Bittersweet memories of a friend and a very serious crush. I really do miss you and wish things had turned out differently. I feel so terrible about how awkward and stupid I was around you. If I could, I would go back and do it all differently. But I can't change the past no matter how much I wish about it. You were so special to me and always will be. But you'll never know and, let's be honest, it wouldn't make a difference, would it? You were with him before I met you and you'd be a fool to leave him for me. I need to let you go. I wish I had never fallen for you. I knew from the start it was a mistake and had no chance but my heart wants you anyway.

7 comments add comment

  • Em
6 months ago

I relate so much to this. I wish you luck in everything.

  • OP
6 months ago

Thank you, Em. I wish you luck as well.

  • M
one month ago

I relate <3

  • L
one month ago

i felt this in my soul

  • L
one month ago

i felt this in my soul

  • lovebud
5 days ago

Hi OP, just want you to know that my husband and I we're exactly like this long before we met each other. And then we found each other! And it wasn't pining. It was real. It was mutual. And those crushes still hurt. They always will. At least a little. But you find someone. And they find you. And you make a life together that is infinitely better than anything you could have imagined with an old crush. Because it's real.

  • v
2 days ago

This is bit by bit me. It's like I lived your life and you mine

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