It’s not like I wanted to leave. I just—

Immediately thought I would be hated. I thought I was disgusting— how could o confess my love like that and actually live with myself.

I regret so much— and I’m just as affected, I promise. I wish I could have done more. I wish I was just— I knew how to make people happy.

I just want to make everything better. I want to make things better. I want to make everyone happy. Redemption at least.

I’m sorry for being greedy, and thinking that the world revolved around me in that instant. I’m sorry I don’t know how to hear, but not listen. and I’m sorry for my greed.

…I’m gonna be a nurse now. I still wanna be famous. One day. It’s not something I’m really excited about yet, but I hope I learn to love it.

If you two saw me— I don’t think you’d be happy. I’m too pale, I’m too skinny, and now I’m getting circles from not sleeping. It’s a mess.

God I hope y’all are swimming in nothing but good blessings

— southern belle